心理时间,意味着逃离真相(what is),去追逐理想(what should be)。比如,我现在内心恐惧,但终有一天我将从恐惧中解脱;所以,要解脱恐惧,时间是必需的——反正我这样认为。一旦从真相切换到理想,我就陷入了时间陷阱;时间,意味着事实与理想之间拉开距离,需要我付出努力去弥合。我不喜恐惧,努力理解、分析、拆解恐惧,或探索恐惧起因,或彻底逃避恐惧。所有这些,都意味着竭心尽力,我们已习惯于努力作为,因而总是身陷真实与理想的冲突之中。“理想面目”只是我的理念,而理念是虚构的,不是我的“真实面目”,不是事实。唯有明白时间在制造混乱,我的“真实面目”才能转变。
那么,我能不能完全、彻底地摆脱恐惧,当下解脱?如果让内心的恐惧继续,我将不断地制造混乱。所以你要明白,时间是制造混乱的元凶,而不是解脱恐惧的终极手段。所以,欲解脱恐惧,没有渐次方法,就如同摆脱民族主义桎梏也没有渐法。如果你有民族主义情结,同时你又宣称,终有一天,人类将实现四海之内皆兄弟的大同,那么在这时间进程中,人类必然充斥着战争、仇恨与苦难,人与人之间必然有各种可怕的撕裂。所以,时间制造着世间的混乱。
——克里希那穆提《生命书:365观心日课》(The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti)
译按:
what is:真相、如是实相、本来如是、实然;
what should be:梦想、如彼幻相、理应如彼,应然。
此篇难译难懂。文中所言时间,均是指心理时间、精神时间,亦即未曾化解的过往重负(过去时间沉淀于心底),以及用以对治、逃避当下痛苦与恐惧(what is)的美好、遥远未来(what should be)。
The Disorder That Time Creates
Time means moving from what is to “what should be.” I am afraid, but one day I shall be free of fear; therefore, time is necessary to be free of fear—at least, that is what we think. To change from what is to “what should be” involves time. Now, time implies effort in that interval between what is and “what should be.” I don’t like fear, and I am going to make an effort to understand, to analyze, to dissect it, or I am going to discover the cause of it, or I am going to escape totally from it. All this implies effort—and effort is what we are used to. We are always in conflict between what is and “what should be.” The “what I should be” is an idea, and the idea is fictitious, it is not “what I am,” which is the fact; and the “what I am” can be changed only when I understand the disorder that time creates.
… So, is it possible for me to be rid of fear totally, completely, on the instant? If I allow fear to continue, I will create disorder all the time; therefore, one sees that time is an element of disorder, not a means to be ultimately free of fear. So there is no gradual process of getting rid of fear, just as there is no gradual process of getting rid of the poison of nationalism. If you have nationalism and you say that eventually there will be the brotherhood of man, in the interval there are wars, there are hatreds, there is misery, there is all this appalling division between man and man; therefore, time is creating disorder.
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