显然,我是运用能观心(observer),来审视愤怒。我说:“我愤怒。”在愤怒时刻,是“无我”的;片刻之后,“我”就产生了——所谓“我”就是心理时间;时间,就是思维,就是言诠。那么我能不能抹除时间因素,来审视愤怒?只有放下你的能观心,才能观察愤怒,静观自心被愤怒引到哪里。现在,我开始领悟静观之道——觉察真相,不带见解,不设定论,不做谴责,不加评判。我明白了:我能不落思维、不落言诠地“看见”愤怒,心灵可以超越理念与二元冲突的控制。所以,我能否审视恐惧,不把它视为孤立事实?
【先生,我只是以恐惧和暴力举例。通过一个例子,你能看清思维的全部世界;通过一个“恐惧”的例子,你的心灵之门能够打开。】如果你仍视之为孤立事实,说明你的心扉尚未打开,那么我们还是先回归事实,另举例子,以便你能看清那异乎寻常的内心世界,使你拥有一把开启心灵的钥匙,从而豁然进入心灵深处……
通过思考恐惧,比如恐惧死亡、恐惧邻居、恐惧配偶操控你,你明白了操控的全部内幕,这样就能打开心灵之门,是吧?要紧的是打开自己的内心,而不是摆脱恐惧,因为一旦开启了心灵之门,恐惧就一扫而空了。人的内心,是时间沉淀的产物,而时间沉淀,就是你的思维言诠——思悟及此,何等高妙!时间沉淀,就是思维,而思维滋生了恐惧,滋长了死亡恐惧。内在恐惧盘根错节、微妙诡谲,其实全部潜藏在心理时间中。
——克里希那穆提《生命书:365观心日课》(The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti)
How Do I Look at Anger?
Obviously, I look at it as an observer being angry. I say, “I am angry.” At the moment of anger there is no “I”; the “I” comes in immediately afterwards—which means time. Can I look at the fact without the factor of time, which is the thought, which is the word? This happens when there is the looking without the observer. See where it has led me. I now begin to perceive a way of looking—perceiving without the opinion, the conclusion, without condemning, judging. Therefore, I perceive that there can be “seeing” without thought, which is the word. So the mind is beyond the clutches of ideas, of the conflict of duality and all the rest of it. So, can I look at fear not as an isolated fact?
[Sir, fear and violence are just examples. Through one example you can see the whole universe of thought; by taking one thing, “fear,” your mind has opened the door.] If you isolate a fact that has not opened the door to the whole universe of the mind, then let us go back to the fact and begin again by taking another fact so that you yourself will begin to see the extraordinary thing of the mind, so that you have the key, you can open the door, you can burst into that….
… By considering one fear—the fear of death, the fear of the neighbor, the fear of your spouse dominating over you, you know the whole business of domination—will that open the door? That is all that matters—not how to be free of it—because the moment you open the door, fear is completely wiped away. The mind is the result of time, and time is the word—how extraordinary to think of it! Time is thought; it is thought that breeds fear, it is thought that breeds the fear of death; and it is time which is thought, that has in its hand the whole intricacies and the subtleties of fear.
MARCH 30