我们所讲的时间,不是指钟表时间。钟表时间是存在的,而且必须存在。如果你想赶巴士,如果你明天搭火车或赴约会,则必须遵循钟表时间。但你还有心理意义上的明天,这就是心理时间。心理明天是真实存在吗?抑或,那只是思维的造作?——因为你发现当下直接转变是不可能的,所以发明了渐变之策。
身为人类一员,我以为,我们的生活、思维、感受与行为的方式需要发生根本性转化,这是极其重要的。如果我安慰自己:“我会花时间转化自己,明天或者一个月后,我就会大变样。”这就是我们所说的时间——由时间、明天与未来搭建的心理结构。我们都生活在这个心理结构中:过去、现在与未来——注意我们说的不是钟表时间。我经历了昨天,而昨天依然通过今天在心中运转,进而制造出未来。这一点简单易懂,比如,一年前我有过某次经历,并在心中残留下印迹;现在,我根据那些残留的经验、知识、传统与约束来解读当下,并继续制造着明天。我陷入了这个怪圈中,这就是所谓的生活,这就是所谓的时间。
思维,连同所有的记忆、枷锁、理念、希望、绝望、彻底的生存孤独……这就是你,所有这些就是心理时间。为了领悟心理时间终结——亦即时间泯灭的境界,你必须扪心自问:能否彻底放下一切经验?因为经验的本质,是心理时间。
——克里希那穆提《生命书:365观心日课》(The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti)
A Timeless State
When we are talking about time, we do not mean chronological time, time by the watch. That time exists, must exist. If you want to catch a bus, if you want to get to a train or meet an appointment tomorrow, you must have chronological time. But is there a tomorrow, psychologically, which is the time of the mind? Is there psychologically tomorrow, actually? Or is the tomorrow created by thought because thought sees the impossibility of change, directly, immediately, and invents this process of gradualness?
I see for myself, as a human being, that it is terribly important to bring about a radical revolution in my way of life, thinking, feeling, and in my actions, and I say to myself, “I’ll take time over it; I’ll be different tomorrow, or in a month’s time.” That is the time we are talking about: the psychological structure of time, of tomorrow, or the future, and in that time we live. Time is the past, the present, and the future, not by the watch. I was, yesterday; yesterday operates through today and creates the future. That’s a fairly simple thing. I had an experience a year ago that left an imprint on my mind, and the present I translate according to that experience, knowledge, tradition, conditioning, and I create the tomorrow. I’m caught in this circle. This is what we call living; this is what we call time.
Thought, which is you, with all its memories, conditioning, ideas, hopes, despair, the utter loneliness of existence—all that is this time…. And to understand a timeless state, when time has come to a stop, one must inquire whether the mind can be free totally of all experience, which is of time.
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