只要我们的思维还沿着时间维度,就必然恐惧死亡。比如,我博学多知,但尚未悟道,我必须在死前觉悟;如果死前没有觉悟,至少我希望来世悟道,等等。我们所有的思维都基于时间,思维就是已知,是已知的产物,而已知就是时间。我们想运用时间思维,发现超越时间的永恒,但这是一场徒劳的追寻,没有任何意义,只有哲学家、理论家和空想家们乐此不疲。如果我想发现真理——不是等到明天,而是当下直悟,那么那个“我”,那个不断搜罗、不断努力、沉湎于记忆不断续命的自我,必须止息下来。我们能不能在活着的时候,就消泯自我?不是人为删除记忆——那只是健忘症,而是实实在在不再通过记忆而积累,从而不再延续我执。活在这个时间的世界上,我们能不能不加任何强迫,从而进入不再有经验心(the experiencer)与经验(the experience)二元分别的境界?只要你心里分出一个经验心、观察心、思维心,就必然恐惧自我终结,恐惧死亡。
所以,如果能认知这一切,心下了然,而不是口称“好,这很简单”;如果能明白意识的全部过程,看清连续与时间的全部意义,明白在时间维度追寻永恒是一场徒劳;如果这一切均能了悟于心,那么就可能消泯自我,从而彻底超越时间,真正焕发出生命的创造力。
——克里希那穆提《生命书:365观心日课》(The Book of Life: Daily Meditations with Krishnamurti)
A Vain Pursuit
As long as we think in terms of time, there must be fear of death. I have learned, but I have not found the ultimate, and before I die I must find it; or if I do not find it before I die, at least I hope I shall find it in the next life, and so on. All our thinking is based on time. Our thinking is the known, it is the outcome of the known, and the known is the process of time; and with that mind we are trying to find out what it is to be immortal, beyond time, which is a vain pursuit. It has no meaning except to philosophers, theorists, and speculators. If I want to find the truth, not tomorrow, but actually, directly, must not I—the “me,” the self that is always gathering, striving, and giving itself a continuity through memory—cease to continue? Is it not possible to die while living—not artificially to lose ones memory, which is amnesia, but actually to cease to accumulate through memory, and thereby cease to give continuance to the “me”? Living in this world, which is of time, is it not possible for the mind to bring about, without any form of compulsion, a state in which the experiencer and the experience have no basis? As long as there is the experiencer, the observer, the thinker, there must be the fear of ending, and therefore of death….
And so, if it is possible for the mind to know all this, to be fully aware of it and not merely say, “Yes, it is simple”—if the mind can be aware of the total process of consciousness, see the whole significance of continuity and of time, and the futility of this search through time to find that which is beyond time—if it can be aware of all that, then there may be a death that is really a creativity totally beyond time.
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