Today I dress up myself as a Christmas tree For the Upcoming festival. Maybe I leave the impression for everyone that I'm always happy. But You can't imagine my Postgraduate life was began with tragedy. I was surrounded by loneliness those days when i moved to shanghai. There were no relatives, no friends, schoolmates but unfamiliar with. Most of the time, I stayed in the office alone from 8am to the midnight without saying any words. And My tutor squeezed me to stay up late and remain working during weekends. To make matters worse, My boyfriend broke up with me. My whole world was collapsed when My mom passed away because of cancer. Hopeless and Helpless, I have no one to tell to complain to ask for help. Every day, I felt tired, lonely, little sense of learning and life, and my body and mind is emptied. I struggle with insomnia and poor appetite. Life was even harder for me.
But things turned around.By chance I joined in a non-profit organization called shanghai baby’s home. It’s a foster care center for the orphaned and abandoned special need children. The volunteer’s work was to accompany the sick children from see a doctor, to having a intravenous injection. It was not simple for me because I have no experience of raising a baby and I didn’t know how to get on well with children, let alone these disabled children. I had made psychological preparation, but I was still shocked When I first stepped into the baby’s home. the Nursing worker handed me a small baby and told me to watch out for his eyecells in case of eyeballs fell out, take care of his colostomy bag and don't embrace him too closely. Never had I known the true meaning of pitiful before I met with him. The whole morning, I tried my best to comfort and amuse him, finally he fell asleep in my arms. Honestly speaking, my arms were ache and tremble. I was a little tired for the crying sound. But it was curative when the little baby kept calling me mom. Then in the next volunteer activity, I became the mom of a boy with hydrocephalus, his brain was heart-shaped and heavier than his body. Though his eyes were difficult to open, he kept staring at me. I accompanied these angels every month till now and I became the mother of more children though I'm not yet married.
My Life and values began to change. problems seemed less important than they are. I felt relieved and no more bothered by my troublesome tutor, the complicated interpersonal relationship and the raw deal. And I’m coming back now, from no one around to friends gathering. everyday was a celebration for me. I will buy myself a cake for today’s hard work, a bunch of flowers for festivals, a beautiful dress for the successful scientific research report. Also, There are celebrations waiting for me. I have accomplished 4 sci papers so I’m looking forward to my graduation celebration. My boyfriend will renovate our house next month and we will hold a Housewarming celebration. I plan a trip to Thailand and Nepal for my new year celebration. I appreciate all the experience and realize that the most important thing is not to care about true or false, gain or loss, rich or poor, fame or fortune, but how to live a poetic life. I encourage pessimists not to lose heart and I wish the optimists will always be happy. We can live in the moment and enjoy the presence because everyday is worth celebrating.
