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“感谢”这个词，要正儿八经地提上台面，一定会有“挖，好深沉”的感觉，好是当事人之间必须经历一场生死之交，或者场面必定摆上一碗“心灵鸡汤”，你一口我一口，对那过往云烟好生沉香一炉。
随着性格的成长，好似我已经不再归属为内向害羞尴尬之人，尤其在文字插诨打科上。其实呢……其实没什么啦（秘密总归是秘密）。所以，像我这种内心有着敏感戏又兼具了神经病体质的人，如果煞有介事地给人说“谢谢”，总有惊为天人的阵仗。
那么，我们就来说说那些不经意的小事。比如说，我因为认识了A，于是一起出行，期间认识了BCD；因为四小龄童关系骤好，于是某天去D家吃吃喝喝；因为在紫微家看了《年代秀》，偶然知道原来第一个徒步+骑自行车环游世界的牛人是个叫潘德明的中国人。挖，窃以为那些拉轰的背包客嬉皮士自由体都是外国人作为领头羊，殊不知还有这样的渊源……于是我dig more，然后做了采访……
我在曼谷旅舍门口，因为询问“这里面可以吃冰淇淋吗？”而认识了高高瘦瘦的荷兰人，那个白皙的姑娘在我离开曼谷时还请我喝了一杯冰镇红酒。在新加坡迷路时，遇见了一个建于18XX年的教堂，在里面坐了好久，稀里糊涂还抹了会儿眼泪。因为忘记带钥匙去了成都当代美术馆，发现那附近的窨井盖涂成豆沙绿还颇有几分文艺好看。……有时候，缘分，就是那么一瞬间的事，谁也说不清楚，更说不透，那是个心知肚明的秘密。
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这几日，对生命颇有几分如大自然神力突显般的肃然起敬。
2013年11月3日，泰国芭提雅沉船事件，不过是电视新闻上的五秒摘要。然而，当我朋友面带着丝丝浮笑，对我说“当时我就在船上”、“我的救生衣是从死人身上拔下来”。我一时无语，只感觉背脊一身凉，鸡皮子疙瘩不由自主地往上冒。
2013年11月23日凌晨，朋友突遇车祸，肇事车就在红灯停的时候直愣愣地冲过来，我的朋友措手不及地抱头，后座那扇车窗全碎，玻璃渣子划破了她的太阳穴。虽只是皮外伤，却吓醒了所有人胃里面残存的酒精。匆匆赶去，医生给她缝针时，我还听着她在委屈地说“医生缝好点儿，本来就嫁不出去了，破相更没人要了”，却忽而晕血倒地。第一次晕血的自己，脑袋撞出了个鸡蛋大的包，在这个大包变成鸽子蛋、鹌鹑蛋渐渐消失的几十个小时内，对周遭、对人与人之间微妙的情感传递，更多一分慎重和随意。（感觉好矛盾，其实真是这样，你们懂啦。^_^）
福祸总相依，生命是一个化学体。我不知道如何说谢谢，我只是庆幸在很多事情发生时，身边有谁，而尽量不去想，身边少了谁。
《罗拉快跑》告诉我，分秒之间，世界瞬息万变。我相信偶然、相信因果、相信蝴蝶效应，也相信“不需要什么都硬塞个大道理大意义”。我总是阴差阳错遇见一些人一些事，我不知道如果某天我没迟到、没坐错车、没出席某次活动会怎样，但是我知道，某些偶然促成了很多美丽的必然，当然也有很多糟糕的事。选择了一条路，或许就永远看不到另一条路上的风景；当然，很多路都是迂回的一个圈，或许一不小心就从另一个方向抵达了。
借用白落梅的那句书名以结尾：世间所有的相遇都是久别重逢。
谢谢你的阅读。
甘蓝 2013-11-26
To Random little things
It’s kind of weird for us to say “thanks” officially. It seems we have to stuffer something meaningful together, or the occasions have to be unique. Someone like me seems barely to be shy or awkward. When I said thanks seriously to someone, they were kind of surprise about my solemn attitude.
I don’t want to make the topic “thanks” seriously. I just want to talked about some amazing random little things which made our life happy, interesting, meaningful and different.
Because of knowing A, I knew BCD. And I watched a tv-show at D’s house which talked about the first person travelled around the world on foot and by bike was a Chinese, and his name is Pan Deming. The story of him inspired me to dig more, and became the hint for my article about city bicycle culture.
By asking “could I have ice-cream inside” at the door of hostel in Bangkok, I began to talk with some slim and talk Dutch, and the white girl even bought me a glass of cold wine for seeing me off that night.
I met an old church because I missed my way in Singapore, but I spent a wonderful afternoon there. Even had no idea why my tears went out.
I went to the Museum of Contemporary Art of Chengdu because I can’t go home(I left my key). And I found out there was a manhole cover was painted in light green, quite cute.
Sometimes, fate, is one moment thing. No one can tell clear, but we all know it.
Recently, I felt the strong power from life and nature.
Nov. 3rd. 2013. A tourist ferry has capsized in Thailand near the beach resort of Pattaya. This new might cost 5sec for reporting on TV. But when my friend told me with his weird smile that “I was on the boat” and “my lifejacket was from a dead woman”, I hesitated and had nothing I could say. The imagination made me flesh creep.
The early morning of Nov. 23rd, my friend had an accident. The peace-breaker drove through a red light and crashed the taxi which she was sitting in the back. Even it was scratch, it woke up the rest of alcohol in stomach. While I was hearing her words to the doctor “please stitch up skillfully, I don’t wanna have scar” while I was felling in faint. That was My first time I fainted. I got bruise on my head, as egg size, as pigeon egg size, as quail size…during these hours, I found out the subtleties parts more among people.
Life is a chemistry journey, with good, with bad. I don’t know how to say thanks. I was happy when things happened, someone was be with me. And I tried not to think about who were missing.
“Run Lola Run” told me that the world changed each second. I believe in contingency, cause &effect, butterfly effect, and also” don’t need think too much”. I always met some people and some things accidentally. I don’t know what would happen instead of not being late, not going somewhere, not doing something. But I know, the occasion led many beautiful inevitable, of course there were also a lot of bad things. Choose one path, perhaps you would never have chance to see the scenery from other roads. Of course, many roads are circuitous in a circle, perhaps you would arrive from another direction.
Thanks for your reading.
Lenore Nov. 26th 2013
