2020-01-25
12，2点醒，3点起！
晨起锻炼结束嗮太阳就是疫情问题，团队说不要回去，就是学校没确定是否可以延期，我其实很OK，就去goa，purple valley被，都可以，不会留在这里，记住不要和J提！也许就是情况使然，这里溜达后回纽约！
纠结吗？
老大讲了些啥啊？ 30年sadhana修行，abyasa就是简单练习，karma？我做了老师该做的，还是有问题，那是你的问题，不是我的。社交媒体让所有人发疯，忽视周围的存在。
dal，三杯咖啡，banglore bun，很油，kulfi很甜，可以网上申请visa sri lanka。也许我会直接去，就是学校说没啥变化，无法做决定。
回到house，试图做case study，也是昏迷状态，在蹭时间，初一哦，竟然如此没效率？还是做了一些工作，结构case stud清晰一些，我就一个包，一个人阳阳傻傻去了kumar house，deniz建议brunch，pool和beer，我都很坚决拒绝了，感觉无聊，Sarah建议pizza，好吧，至少我不是那么孤独，到了门口，Tanmoi在爬门，给了他巧克力，和Kumar聊了几句，感觉和他们很舒服，J一直没任何信息，我都认为他不会来了，和t门口玩bagari，他非常有活力，J出现看起来非常糟糕，一塌糊涂皱褶衬衫胡子拉碴，看起来非常落魄，我惊奇自己啥taste，一起玩B给他们录像，他玩起来很孩子气，我们4.15出发，我问他工作如何，说：这一周过的特别快，修harmonie，没工作，没见ravi，我心里想这效率还没见面呢，所有我认为会发生的要成为作家结果各种磨难故事都是真的。anyhow，20分钟我们就到了K house，非常大，看起来很古老，后来知道才6年历史，自己设计，20万一平方公顷，现在250万rp，我和james开始聊天，问他背部问题还是pelvic不平衡，一直问题，说自己工作不够多，但是admin又浪费很多时间，因为perfectionist，没人帮，man with many problems，我充分意识到！我开始坐在房中间椅子上自由摇摆，很舒服，他坐在我面前，很认真问我工作经历，和如何完成deadline，我很鼓励他，说他很多quality我都不具备，但确实擅长专注完成deadline，他纠结的问题很简单，have to decide where to live either in Europe or USA, even with his unstable financial income he need make it happen then things will work out, there is no market for him in India. No matter where to live, aoomodation is most, others are ok, he thinks in UK food is also very expensive I was a bit scared by that if he can not even support his own living. He said living in Japan with teaching he enjoyed good quality of food and taking care of himself is ok, not supporting family. for 12 years no fixed income only with yoga anytime long-sum which is not much. he is bad on admin job time consuming particular he is not efficient. Anyhow we had a good sincere talk and I can only help so much and said my offer of staying in New York will remind. he asked me how I feel about now, I said completely open for one year and I have done my duties with parents, brother and nephew, enough is enough. he thinks Eddie is just asana focus I corrected him which is not case, he has no idea on how to start even putting him in new York but stubbornly think he should teach to normal people not from yoga group, let us see, he needs figure out his own way.
和meloni出去散步非常美的夕阳，J不提醒不知道给我照相，自己照相很愿意，哎！风景很美，很多小孔雀，庄稼，椰子树，M提到自己14年前backpacking到印度，嫁给Kumar经历很多适应不适应，一个大家族住在一起，它一个澳洲华人，真的很勇敢。我们到家结果来了几个亲戚，都是不请自来，印度习俗很有意思。
The fire in the evening is fun, even dinner is late at 7.30, completely dark, before that we saw kumar milking the cow, quite a work, and getting fire up and putting dinner, he is a man doing a lot of things. dinner is nice, I had nice set and like particular the baby banana and lemon cake, they even had a glass of wine each. Tanmou lied down with daddy and when we talked about happiness, he said happiness is when u win! quite a boy, I asked him then 'what is meaning of life' he is 7 years old said ' I do not know!' ambience is really nice, Kumar said his clients talking about S said to a Korean girl M D can be done next life and girl cried, I said our teacher is making jokes sometimes, like now my feet is clean!
Kumar said his office building is selling at Euro 200k and he was doing massage to start with now into therapy with quite some stable clients from all over country. Well, good for him. M asked me when to move to mysore then saying J is moving out, well I do not think mysore is my preferred place at all.
they talked about Thomas obviously a charming guy living in Ibiza and another guru babaji? I stayed up to 10.30 then decide to go to bed, quite surprised room is big and clean and bed is pretty comfortable I felt into sleep ok, still work up at 2am, then slept a bit to 4am getting up very cold 15 degrees, doing ashtanga to be ready for breakfast, finish at 6am still dark coming to downstairs M is up, I was in my swing then James up with his headlight, funny, so we went outside in chilly morning to see the sunrise in the garden, he sung a nice song to sunrise, not too me, but I like it so recorded, he did not change his horrible shirt either, my god! Anyhow we saw nice sunset and sunrise together, going to the cows, having breakfast outside, banana again super natural delicious, I had another 3, last night 3, we had fun time, he does not like cafe I just love cafe, even rush we left house 7.15am, but did all the things worthwhile, got sweet cafe, home cooked dosa and wonderful experience.
he promised to cook for me Wed. I said we might see each other earlier but he needs deadline mindset so we might see each other earlier, then walked home to say good, I feel so sweet, so talked to Maxi and Moha about it showing them the singing video this morning, got so excited, when u talked about it it felt much more sweet. Just experience it no expectation much and let us see how it evolve!
