This is my first time to write something like a dairy.(talk something by myself)
Why l want to talk about “save my life”? This is a good question,I want to be a hero and own a whole person.
I found l always escaped some problems and someone. Today I saw a move gain ,called“《end of the fucking world 》”.Two youger people thought they totally different with others,the small town was so boring.The boy’s mom killed herself face the son when he was play with the ducks .This situation too deep impression to let the boy feel sad and guity .He thinks is his fault and he didn’t do anything when his mom driving a car drop to the river .His father was afriand of quit , always make a nose like:a loudly laughing, do some sutpid things let his son’s laughing .Then his son just said :please,stop .
The girl has a complete family.Because her parents get divorced, she lives in with her mom.But her mom remarried with a young guy .Her father sometimes to said words like :“you are almost grow up ,you are so pretty!” The girl hate her father and her mom saw this situation ,heard some word .Finally ,she didn’t do nothing. Have a big resean is her mom born two babies that she need to take care of babies.
So two youger people met each other ,just they are saw each other’s different behavior and weird ideas.
I remember a move called :“《murdered for being a different 》”. We are living a ordinary world ,just don’t have any regret.Sometimes I think you want to be yourself or keep your unique are very difficult in China. Even living a big city like Beijing ,if you can’t find someone who have common velaue 、same hobbies ，you will be felt more lonely .
I don’t have any ideas about my life.
Before I lost my myself for many years ,when I heard my roommate said :“l feel hopeless about my future because l’ve 30 years old ,l ‘m still have nothing ,don’t have lover ,don’t have more money . I ‘m afraid of face the reality .what should I do ? I ‘m not sure .Sometimes l want to kill myself but I can’t do it . ” This sentence alwangs remind me and hurt me for a long time .
How many people will be succesed?Only 20%.This year I find my own hope ,
Because a teacher said :“we can live many lifetimes !” I totally believe it ,when I saw a movie I felt that I follow the protagonist through a part of time .I reborned again and again just in my mind .
People always felt contradiction .I can do positive and optimistic attitude.when I do working that I can contact with everyone ,but when stay in my home I feel whole world just rest myself .
I want change my life , become a better person.Maybe Sometimes have a dark light covered ,but I can overcome myself .
End of this dairy ,l should insist on write
something every night .
